Hard to believe that a year has passed and a new year is just beginning. So much has transpired over the last year for me. I was able to get out of my comfort zone and investigate what a cochlear implant might do for me. I am one of those people that have a hard time with change and the feelings that go along with change. Fear is one of the biggest feelings that I have when it comes to making a change. I have learned that fear stands for False Evidence Appearing Real. In other words I am already telling myself how something is going to plan out before I even do it. I had to learn to trust God and to practice my faith when fear would take a hold of me. When I let go and trust God to walk with me through my fear it always turns out much better than I predicted. My decsion to get the implant was a very thought out process with the support of my family, friends and God. Just one little step out of my comfort zone has allowed me to have a much more enjoyable life today.
Some of my new goals that I am going to work on this year is staying positive and not dwell on negativity all the time.There is always a positive in a negative situation. It is not always about why a situation didn't work out but, what life lesson do I need to learn from this. I am also going to look into going back to college. I am feeling more confidant with my hearing since I have my cochlear implant. I am going to start by learning sign language since I have never been taught how to sign. Growing up I was taught how to lip read and use my hearing aids to my best of my ability. I went to regular public schools and got mainstreamed with help on the side to go over some of my classes. I was the only deaf girl growing up in all of my schools. I went to a very small town school to graduating with a big class of around 300. Even though I learned to adapt very well I was still very nervous about exploring what that big world had in store for me after high school. Long story short here I am many years later and with a lot more confidence with pursuing more education for me. I am going to be realistic about goals I set for myself. I am going into this year with no expectations and work on following what God has planned for me.
I was truly blessed in 2011 when I received the cochlear implant by Med El. It has made a big impact in my life in such a very short time since I got the device turned on. I still have a very long journey ahead of me with some bumps along the way with having a implant. The risks for me outweigh the benefits this amazing device has given me. I am excited to begin 2012 with new goals and a more positive outlook on the what the year will bring. I wish everyone a peaceful, healthy and blessed New Year!
I was truly blessed in 2011 when I received the cochlear implant by Med El. It has made a big impact in my life in such a very short time since I got the device turned on. I still have a very long journey ahead of me with some bumps along the way with having a implant. The risks for me outweigh the benefits this amazing device has given me. I am excited to begin 2012 with new goals and a more positive outlook on the what the year will bring. I wish everyone a peaceful, healthy and blessed New Year!
